Yeah, as much as I would like to think that I have grown up, gained knowledge, become better, smarter, the similarities to the past are still stark. I have never been the most confident person. I have always been uncomfortable with parts of my life, (weight, general looks, overall likability) , I used to make up for it with bitchiness and lock my feelings away into a place that access was limited. Then I made a conscious decision to be a better, nicer person and it seems that have lost some of my self confidence along the way. I guess life is all about the road to self improvement. It has always been a struggle for me to do some things that are second nature to others, and I also get nervous and seem to loose my words under pressure. I can't seem to express myself the way I used to, then it was so effortless and now, not so much. I am always so worried about the opinions of others. I just have to find the energy and patience to keep plugging away. Also here is a photo of a pensive fox. Goodnight.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Confidence, Sometimes I don't haz it.
Yeah, as much as I would like to think that I have grown up, gained knowledge, become better, smarter, the similarities to the past are still stark. I have never been the most confident person. I have always been uncomfortable with parts of my life, (weight, general looks, overall likability) , I used to make up for it with bitchiness and lock my feelings away into a place that access was limited. Then I made a conscious decision to be a better, nicer person and it seems that have lost some of my self confidence along the way. I guess life is all about the road to self improvement. It has always been a struggle for me to do some things that are second nature to others, and I also get nervous and seem to loose my words under pressure. I can't seem to express myself the way I used to, then it was so effortless and now, not so much. I am always so worried about the opinions of others. I just have to find the energy and patience to keep plugging away. Also here is a photo of a pensive fox. Goodnight.
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Happy New Year!
So, I have decided to use this thing, as I should at the very least be productive as I am on the internet looking at crap all the time. I read blogs, look at home design, craft design and tons of things I wish I could have. Well enough is enough. 2012 is the year I really get off my ass and make things work for me. I am always so self conscious about everything I do and say and it has really been holding me back in more than one way. I did some really cool things I had never done before in 2011 so at least there was that. I hope to continue to improve, and to strive to not be a lazy internet potato and to get up and get the things I want. My house may never look like the ones in martha stewart magazine and I may never be the best at sewing or knitting, but I at least should enjoy myself and give it a shot.
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| My new years eve flowers for the kitchen table. Evie loves to smell them and say "Ahhh!" |
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| I also made some curtains for my sewing studio. Ikea fabric is the best for home dec. Love it. |
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